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"The new police recruits. Call them slobs. Call them jerks. Call them gross. Just don't call them when you're in trouble." - Police ACademy, 1984
"To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment" - Ralph Waldo Emerson
"You only have to do a very few things right in your life so long as you don't do too many things wrong" - Warren Buffett
Yikes!!!!!!
Sunday, 24 February 2008
I'm going home!!!!!! I know I said I had already booked my leave but I just booked my flights home, emailed my best friend and phoned granny and grumpy to let them know that I really am on my way!!!! :-D Grumpy has not been well for a few months now and I have been having nightmares about not being able to see him again. It's over a year since I went home and saw them and I don't know if I'll get there in time but I bl**dy hope so.
The only sad thing is that I'm only able to go for 3 weeks and although for some people that is a really good long time to go away, for me it's not enough. I get to see my grandparents and friends once a year , if I'm lucky, and 3 weeks is just not long enough but I'll make the most of it!
I really cannot wait to get away for a while. I know I only went away a month or so ago but I need a familiar, homely like place to go to. I've had a couple of horrible weeks at work with sergeants laying into me and making my life hell and since then I have been reconsidering my options. I've had silly thoughts that maybe I'm not right for this job, despite loving it. My confidence level has dropped somewhat (and belive you me it wasn't much better before anyway) and it hasn't been the most pleasureable of times but I really am trying to keep my chin up!
Yikes!!!
Another good thing is that my mum is speaking to me again! It's been a couple of weeks since we had an argument over family business but she phoned me last night to tell me she was going skiing in France and that I wasn't to worry about her if her phone was off. She phoned me again this afternoon to tell me she had arrived safe and sound! Great!
Yikes again!!!!!!
I finish my training in University in four weeks time!!! Yey!! As you can probably tell I'm really looking forward to the end of this part of my 'controlled learning' training and am looking forward to a different environment. To be honest I don't think I'm the only one as everyone has been looking a bit fed up in the last few days. I don't think in any way, shape or form that I'm good enough to be allowed out on my own. I don't think I know eough and although the training is decent I don't think it's as good as it could be. It may be just me lacking in confidence once again but I am absolutely bricking it about the possibility of being allowed out on my own! We'll see what happens!!!
So all in all, apart from all the s***ty stuff everything is great!!!!
P**S: Thank you for the *hugs* you sent me...Still need a proper one though but I know I'll get one from granny when I get there...it ain't long now, just a couple of months away!
P**SS: Lyric of the day:
Smile though your heart is aching Smile even though it's breaking When there are clouds in the sky, you'll get by If you smile through your fear and sorrow Smile and maybe tomorrow You'll see the sun come shining through for you
I need a hug. Just one big bear hug. Nothing else. There's nothing sexual about it. I'm not asking for a kiss, an 'I love you' or attention. I just need a hug. Never mind it being Valentine's Day today. I just want a hug. It can be from my mum, dad, my housemates, my tutors, my gym instructor, my neighbours, my friend's friends, your friend's friends or even you!
My mum phoned me a couple of days ago and bored me silly talking about how she was making new friends at her gym and how she loved it! Today I got a text message from her saying "I just had an argument with a giant grumpy man at the gym. I think I made a new enemy! :-(" I replied "I had a scrap with a 17 year old drug dealer in Camden today and I make new enemies every other day! :-D
It was just about the only thing that made me smile today...
Gotta love this job!
P**S: Feeling really sad about going back to University on Monday. It's only for six weeks, I know, but it takes some will power to get through it!
P**SS: Booked my leave for April when I'll be flying home (literally) to 'marry'(I'm bridesmaid of honour) my old housemates and see my granny!
Name: bawpc Home: London, United Kingdom About Me: I know how to let my hair down, I know when to be responsible, I drink, I party, I understand committment, I dread relationships, I dream and I cry when my dreams don't come true. I'm young, yet grown up, I'm scared yet brave, I'm pretty yet the little ugly duckling, I can love, I know how to hate, I'm passionate, compassionate, impatient, fiery. I share, I talk, I love (again), I like to be on my own, I like companionship. I'm complicated...because I'm only human. See my complete profile
